Unbearable Pain: My Struggle Against the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome
It was a overcast weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden pain erupted behind my right eye. Then came rapid shocks, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unbearable.
The attacks returned frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-on agony in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.
Cluster headaches typically begin with intense discomfort around a single eye that persists for several hours.
Approximately one in 1,000 people suffer by the condition, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with abrupt, severe agony focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of long symptom-free periods.
What connects sufferers is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts during attacks; the figure fell to four percent when they were not in pain.
Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, like many triggers, made things worse. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.
Her family often interpreted her episodes as drunken behavior. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.
Nevertheless, the failure to organize daily activities around unpredictable pain took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The first description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an evil spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.
Ancient healing texts propose unusual treatments for what modern observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a separate condition, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.
It was a European physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.
The disorder were only formally classified by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major artery that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in treating the condition explain this.
In the late 1990s, researchers published the findings of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.
Despite such advances, diagnosis remains slow. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician researched his complaints.
Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But many first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.
A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dentists misunderstood her pain. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack eased.
National guidelines on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the attacks of some individuals.
But leading neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the bout determines the approach.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are managed with abortive treatment alone. Longer or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.
The national guidance need updating to reflect a